Porcelain Doll

You gaze into her eyes and her soul pours out to you
Though she’s broken into pieces
Shattered like porcelain on the cement
So small they are impossible to put back together
You pick them up one by one
Until your knees are bleeding and eyes are strained
She sits and waits closed off to the world
A wall so thick it is impossible to get through
You try with all your energy
To piece her back together
To make her whole
To get her to understand what you can give to her
Her soft face bears a sadness you’ve never seen before
As much as you try
She only grows weaker, dying inside
Pulled in opposite directions
Does she give in and trust, let herself go
Or does she stay hidden to protect herself
Refusing to let anyone try to heal her
In the privacy of her own room
Where no one else can witness
She lets the tears roll down her face
Falling onto pictures spread over her bed
Faces of those who have loved and let her go
Smiles of guys who hurt her
Eyes that have blazed with fire because of her
Each one a brick in the wall that surrounds her
Never to let anyone in again
Only the one who will rebuild her into the girl she used to be
You spill your heart out to her
In hopes that she will let you in
Allow you to be the prince she’s always wanted, always needed
The man who will protect her from her fears
Who won’t criticize
Tear her down to her most vulnerable
And leave her stranded with nowhere to go
When you prove that to her
Someday she will again spill her soul out to you
Not only through her eyes this time
But through her heartfelt words
That she’ll finally be able to share.